Unwelcome Sound

Why do I do it to myself?
I resisted for months.
I went on B's Facebook, and it is official. Even though I knew it in the back of my mind, I was hoping it was just my mind being overactive and hating me.

She is listed as -
In a relationship with [insert hyperlink to on/off girl's Facebook]

There was always that little doubt inside of me that kept me going, the memory of her saying "I'm not going back to her, she's in a relationship too".

I am in so in love with her.

And I just realised that by being so fucking stupid and doing all this, I missed the one thing I was looking forward to all day - making my wish at 11:11 on 11/11. There had to be extra magic around today for that.