Downtime.

This is the longest I've gone without speaking to her, or texting at least.

After managing to keep busy most of the time, I'm now getting ready to sleep, and downtime is really not good. It allows my mind to run through everything. It allows me to think 'What did I do wrong? Where could I have done something differently', and generally beat myself up about it all.

I'm at the numb stage; I guess I'm glad for that right now.

All the things she said, that wasn't her. That wasn't the girl I know and love.
Something's going on, I've a feeling there's more to it than "Long distance won't work."

My sister doesn't understand how I'm not mad at her.
How can I be angry at her when I'd take her back in a heartbeat?