Unwelcome Sound

As I suspected, I woke up today feeling differently to how I did last night, when I wrote that ridiculous spiel.
I've been tempted to delete that entire post today, but I think it's important to keep it there, to show how frustrated and confused I was feeling.

I'm still not one hundred percent certain of anything, but I met up with a friend for coffee today and she said she thinks I get to a certain point with a person and then freak out, and try to back up, because I'm not used to the feelings I'm having. I'm not sure if I agree, I think there's more to it than that, but it was good to talk about it anyway.

I'm just not rushing into anything, but I feel bad because L is probably hella confused right now. I guess I need to tell her all of this.